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I am a broken doll,
Average
i am no more,
On the outside i am perfection,
But my heart is bruised and sore,
They call me broken doll.
Because
of my broken heart,
My heart broke long ago,
Now it's in two parts,
The only visable sign of hurt,
Is the
saddness in my eyes,
No one knows how i feel
My smile is my disguise,
I am a porcelain doll,
With a very broken
heart,
My thought's were the weapons that broke it,
Now it's in two parts,
So sweet looking on the outside,
But
inside angry and sour,
Why must i watch such tradgedy,
Every day hour by hour?
Placed here on this window sill,
Looking
down on the city below,
I see all the maddness and misfourtune,
That the city has for show,
Old ladies bieng
mugged and battered,
Children being shot,
Men sleeping in cardboard boxes
In empty parking lots,
Inside my
tears are falling,
Continuiusly non stop,
My broken heart get's heavier,
With every single drop,
Inside my
broken heart,
Is swimming in my tears,
For it's thinking of the tradgedy,
I've witnessed through the years,
I
am a broken doll,
Who'll be broken evermore,
On the outside i am perfection,
But my heart is bruised and sore
I'll Remember You!!!!
I remember our great times at Sunny Hill,
When every little thing, to
us, was a thrill.
Through the good times and bad,
the laughs and tears we helped each other through,
I'll remember
you.
Though fights and arguments were never a surprise,
then next morning we wake up and watch the sun rise.
The
mountains, the lakes,
the beautiful view,
I'll remember you.
Then the night comes and the sun is low,
Hanging
out in the game room, playing BINGO.
The horse races, the sports,
Baci ball and shuffleboard, too,
I'll remember
you.
Playing on the playground,
and lunch promptly at noon,
It starts to rain but we know it will end soon.
Whether
the skies are cloudy, sunny, or blue,
I'll remember you.
Through summer loves and enemies,
I want you to remember
one thing, please
If the next year comes and I'm not there,
I'm making you all a promise... I swear!
I love you with
all my heart... it's true,
so, remember me as I was, and
I'll remember you.
Dreams Never Do
Come lie with me
One
more time.
Let your golden hair flow
Over my heart,
Like warm sunshine
From a summer day remembered;
Warming
my soul again,
Like your love.
Let me tell you
How much I love you.
Gently touch you
And whisper words
That
are answered
By soft words of your own;
Warming my heart yet again.
Dear God, let this last forever,
As dreams
never do.
Because I Love
You
you could not be more wrong for me,
yet, i run to you, obliviously.
i know
we weren't meant to be
but i luxuriate in fantasy.
because i love you.
we have such torrid chemistry,
our
bodies melt so perfectly
my foolish heart beats, passionately
persuading a mind of practicality.
because i love
you.
in my pursuit of ecstasy,
i laugh in the face of reality
though a harbinger nags, perpetually
it is the
imminence of misery.
because i love you.
you couldn't be more wrong for me
and i know that you agree.
though
we'll never see eternity,
you'll be my most cherished memory.
because i do love you.
Among the demons, I leark and hide,
To scared to speak,
To scared to sigh,
Trying to cast away there evil, And there pain,
Hoping to put off the hurt, just one more day,
They
exist in my dreams, And dwell in my head,
When I wake up, And when I sink into bed,
The fright they bring, So late
at night,
Is so hard to fight, But I want give up, I want
give in,
Even if it's like a tall, obstacle, must descend
Sailing
Each day is like the last,
The ever repeating
past,
Never relenting,
Always preventing,
What happiness really meant.
Just one day, my wish would be,
To climb
aboard a boat,
To sail away and be free.
But dark clouds block my way,
Forcing me to stay,
When the dark
clouds fade away,
Revealing the new day,
Something deep inside,
Still brings me to a lonesome sigh.
The
secret I posses,
That fills me with distress,
To hard to live on, To hard to be strong,
But not anymore,
I refuse,
to fight this war,
The short-lived happy times, is what I cry out for.
The future comes into focus,
And
with that unfolds a plan,
To sail away on a boat,
To a far away land.
Sailing away is my way out,
Sailing
away is just a word I use to lie about,
Sailing away is just another cover,
So people will not notice, and discover.
Sailing
away is my suicide,
That has a hidden meaning deep down inside,
While the waves calm, and begin to yield,
My heart
starts to unwind, and heal.
Now for miles the sea is calm,
No more chains, to hold me down.
No more pain,
will come around.
From this day forward,
I will be found in the sea,
Sailing the constant waters,
Living free.
True love
True love is not found on the surface
But is found deep down in
ones heart
True love does not play games
Once found, and it never leaves
True love can’t be looked for
But
neither is it given
True love can’t be taken
Nor can it be broken
True love cannot be selfish
True love
can’t be easily found
You have to search deep inside your soul
True love cannot be chosen
But it can be seen
True love makes you happy
As it was meant to be
Once
You were once so
close
that every breath I took was deeper than the last.
You were once so dear
that butterflies
invaded everything inside me.
You were once so enchanting
my feet never touched the floor.
You were
once everything
I could ever dream of and more,
But you're not there anymore.
You were once
so unbelievable
that wings peeked from behind you.
You were once so charming
fairy tales
were no comparison.
You were once so close to a dream
that when I finally went to kiss you,
I realized I had missed my chance.
You were once
everything I could ever dream of
and more,
But you're
not there anymore.
Every night I sit & cry,
wondering why
I'd rather die.
I don't know why I feel this way inside,
I always say it's just my mind.
I can't stand all this pain,
it
feels like pouring rain.
Most people say I need help,
but it makes me feel like I'm in hell.
When I look at the razorblade,
I
think......look at all the scars I made.
I wonder if the pain will ever end,
But the thoughts in my head wont go away.
Suicide
was once a choice for my life,
I choose to roll that dice.
When I choose to stop that dice,
it was to late for my
life.
Suicide is now a part of my life,
it is an addiction that won't go away.
This pain cuts deep in to my heart,
I
always feel like I'm alone in the dark.
I feel that no one cares if I decay away,
when my boo's helping me every step
of the way.
I fooled with the devil,
and sold my life away,
and now I have to pay
I'm a dreamer yes this is true.
So
many things I want but probably will never do.
Time keeps ticking and I keep dreaming of days gone by.
Wishing I could
change the past and if I could you know I would try.
One dream that has come true is having you to love.
And for that
dream I must have had help from above.
If you could look into my heart,you would see just how I feel.
How much I really
need you and want to be with you forever and until....
Thats why I still cry
Because I still love you
I know thats something time
won't kill
Because I still miss you
I know I always will
Because my heart feels empty now
I know it's slowly
dieing
Because I feel so lonely now
I know I'll never stop crying
Because I felt so alive with you
I know
you were sent to me
Because I know you loved me to
I know we were meant to be
Because I still hope for someday
I
know I didn't want to say goodbye
Because I hold onto hope for maybe
I know--Thats why I still cry
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